Do you ever feel as though you just are flying? You finally stopped fighting, you let go completely and just jumped. Jumped off the edge and the entire ride from there on out has been completely and utterly wonderful, breezy, fresh and free? It just makes sense to be falling. You know you're falling down, but it lifts you up? You don't know why you waited so long to make the jump, you don't know why you never thought about just jumping before. But while you're falling, your not wasting your time thinking about these things either because once you jump you jump and the past is the past. What a lesson I learned this weekend. It was let the past be the past. And just continue to enjoy the ride of free falling. Its such a backwards metaphor but somehow it works. Well at least for me. I just feel so happy. For the first time in a long time, and its not due to anyone coming into my life, its not due to school or work or a guy who swept me off my feet. Its the most cliche thing, it is from discovering myself through myself and the best part is that it's just starting! I've just discovered HoW to discover myself and what I enjoy and like. I know who I am from simply listening to my needs, allowing myself to be alone has been the most positive experience ever. I found so much strength and wisdom and courage that I never knew existed. I can't stop smiling, I can't stop seeing everything as blissful, and I hope this feeling never goes away. It's like falling in love with your soulmate kind of feeling, but so much more because you know it came from within. And that no one could take it away. I have had the best weeks, the best weekends the best days at school the best days at work ever since I rang in 2009. Maybe it was a conscious decision, to make my life simpler, happier, I am not entirely sure. But I know I am having the time of my life. I am so so so blessed. And I cannot wait for the rest of the year to come, I cannot wait for the surprises to un-fold before me. I cannot wait........
p.s. I want to skydive for my birthday....seriously.
