Ciao For Now

Today, i made a choice. A hard, heartbreaking, bittersweet choice. It wasn't easy, it wasn't hard. it was just a decision, emotions aside, i had to do what i've learn to do best- look out for myself. I am forever grateful to the one person who made me dig deep and start caring, supporting and thinking for myself. They will always be remembered as the person who taught me some of my biggest life lessons, and they will never even know it. I am on my own this time, no comforting ties, no comforting furniture to remind me of memories and days of laughter and days of sadness. I am leaving behind a part of town that helped me grow in ways I can't even explain. A city I really never took advantage of. I saw today what i thought were "greener pastures" and I realized i actually had the greener side all along, ironic huh? but that is my life, always surprising, always exciting and always always always ironic. I can't run from it so i am embracing it. I will be leaving behind: memories.  

good, and bad. Old apartments that i consider places i "grew up". People, that i wouldn't necessarily consider my

self to hang out with, but def. enjoyed. Bars, pictures, scenery, moments in time.

The woman I have grown into, the adult that i am is astonishing considering where i started. I am amazed more and more each day of the world around me, and i am more and more aware of how blessed i truly am. The world is fruitful and delicious. 

I cannot believe that this truly is, the end. The end. It feels as real as the city i live in. I am moving forward, I am not thinking of my insecurities, I am not thinking about what the future has in store for me, because i found that planning life is such a waste of time, because the surprises are so much more fun. If you told me 2 years ago that i would be here, i wouldn't of believed it. I can't believe i am. I am trying to wrap my head around all of these thoughts. I almost said emotions but like i said, i have to leave emotions out of the equations. It's time to 

be serious. business. school. life. 

I get to discover a whole new world. I get to experience what i've wanted for so long. It's def. frightening. But something tells me, i way more equipped to handle this than I orignally thought. 

Ciao B.H., good bye WestSide, so long old friend, hello new ones. Goodbye struggle, hello freedom. 

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GrrRRRrrrr!!!!!!

I'm in a VeRy ill mood with FIDM right now. Very ill mood. and no it's not from the fact that i ate 6 month old mayo with my tuna this afternoon with out realizing it. no its not the fact that i drank an entire bottle of wine celebrating finishing a project on time for the (first time in my life actually) and now i am extremely dehydrated. no its also not the fact that i haven't slept well in the past 10 weeks because school is killing me, or the my boss is laying people off left and right. 

it's..... FIDM! the worst and best decision of my life. currently i hate them. i hate the teachers who only give points to you if your project is avante garde, if you produce something that god for bid someone else did similar 8 quarters ago when you weren't even out of HS yet then good luck lil duckling... because you are getting a flat D on that one. It doesn't matter that you spent hours beyond hours of useless time slaving away at a chair the size of a small human being, as everyone else opted to make a chair fit for a mouse. yet they still get more points. or someone who took a PIECE of her chair and glued it to a piece of paper and got a B. fuckers. 

im ill. im sick. im pissed. i hate when teachers grade you on personalities and how much you kiss their ass. instead of what you produced. 

fuckers. art is about the heart. not photoshop. or illustrator. 

i hate. fidm. 

for right now. im sure ill be over this rant as soon as i hit "publish"

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InFLuENcE

"I don't believe in destiny but I believe in fables"

These people, these pieces of art have in some way shape or form influenced me in the last few months... More to CoMeeee <3

This is the NeW me, eat your hearts out haters...

Please feast your eyes and indulge your appetite on these wonderful beyond wonderful fashion sites....

www.style.com/fashionshows/sartorialist/ 

^talk about amazing, he takes pictures of random fashion-go'ers and what they are wearing. The common public often strikes out when it comes to daily fashion. But these fashionistas and fashionistERS nail it every time. I often get very extremely fabulously inspired by their attire.

www.histyley.com

^ on a more low-budget, low key way this site follows LA-ers around the most trendy LA burrows, such as West Hollywood, Silverlake, The Grove, Hollywood, Century City, Santa Monica etc.. these are normal LA passer-by-ers. It is a peep hole into the LA world. Where only we can get away with such ridiculous ideas for pants, no pants or bra. I show this site to my friends back home in Kentucky and they flip because they just DONT get IT. Its real. Its great. Its even Real Great.

Thats my top 2 pick for the evening... im anxiously awaitin the new arrival of PostSecret.com to unvail its annual Sunday Secrets like every Sunday. That site is the reason I leave the club early, wake up and make breakfast in bed  (for myself) and sit and read,and re-read the secrets over and over. I <3>

I also am extremely lame at times. LOL but check it out. you wont regret it! 

Ciao for now Bellas y Bellos 

Helllooo Chloe

Oh my goody goodness... As I was doing my usual saturday morning routine of browsing through Style.com I came across the Chloe show, that was held in Paris. Pari Pariii ahhh I adore thee! Here are some of my favs from the show... it was hard trying to pick a few from the 29 pieces she showed. 

The first picture: Purple-mens wear inspired- with casual grey pant= love! This look is chic, its very parisian and very very comfortable. This is what I love to see- something trendy that doesnt mean I have to give up my comfort. This is really great for mild climates as well, you dont hav

e to layer and layer and layer all kinds of mess to be cute, trendy and warm. This is an easy look where the pieces can be w

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n separately after the seasons over. 

                                                                                                                        

I know, I know another "purple" item but purple is a huge color in fall/winter run way shows and it just so happens to be my second fav of the collection. Who said shoulder pads had to be INSIDE? These beauts are smack dab where the world can really see them.. I am ridiculously in love with this trend, even though I wont be following it (its hard for me to conform) but doesn't mean I don't appreciate it... plus the simplicity of this dress and look is absolutely divine!

This outfit is cute. Its a nice blend of co

lors and I love the different lengths of the sleeves. the satins are a sweet reminder of spring as well as the flats. but Im not a huge fan of the color story...

 Tre Chic! I LOVE this outfit. I love this line, I love this collection, I love this designer. Ahh The man-pant is BACK! and its like a breath of fresh air! This jacket looks vintage this shirt underneath is perfection and the pants with cuff are more fabulous than pinkberry on a summer day. 

The entire look is great... The only problem I have with this collection is when the designer tries to incorporate a ballgown.... gag-o-saur-ous.... what is this? and how many times have we seen this? complete Blaahh... 

All in All, this was a great lil treat for my eyes... Soo much more on Style.com or WWD.com (Womens Wear Daily) for more decadents <3 

Ciao Bellos y Bellas