Inspiration

Oh Dear friends, I cannot and can, believe how long it has been since I've updated. I will sit down to make a post, and half way through realize that it is coming off more as a journal entry than a post the mass public should be subjected to!

I have had so many inspirations about what I should be doing in my spare time lately. Reading books, nah, I don't get past the first chapter before I am distracted, or tending to Henry. Start writing a book? Ha! Funny one. Post a blog....nah. Watch a movie, nah. etc etc. Lately though, I have been hit with this urgency for educating myself, on all things.

I took a 2 year long hiatus from learning, as in on purpose... F.I.D.M. burnt me out of all my compassion, lust, creativeness, awe-ness (is that a word, well who cares) with not only the world of fashion, but the world in general. It was a boot camp for your talent, and as we all know, only the elite leave going into battle. I couldn't and still cannot, go to Style.com, or Womens Wear Daily, or buy a fashion magazine. Couldn't stand to look at fashion blogs, or fashion shows, etc. I thought maybe, I had wasted 3 years of my life, maybe fashion wasn't where I belonged in life. Reiterating this thought was how I felt about the world of retail. I hated it, and that seemingly was the only place I had ever worked, or could find a job. Had I really just wasted 7 years of my life?
I have been searching ever since, to find 'my calling' in life. For a brief moment I thought motherhood was my calling. Shortly after having Henry I realized, no, I am not a cicada, I was not just born into this world to reproduce and then die.
And no, I am not the mother of 19 kids and counting, nor do I want to be. Babies have become a sincere passion of mine since having Henry, but that is not my life calling. I have become educated on SO much, and the world makes so much more sense since having Henry, yet, not my life calling. I digress.

Getting to my point, I have a thirst now. I am so thirsty to understand the world, and everything in it. I love watching CNN. I love staying up to date on news stories, I love pop culture, I love to hate it. I have found my way back to music, which I had stopped listening to for so very embarrassingly long because I was too busy. I found my compassion, I found love, I found faith, I found so much in the last few years. It's like I have been awakened from a deep sleep. Now I am inspired! My sister and I, have been talking forever about interesting business propositions. We keep trying to figure out what we can do, what is our calling. And the more thirsty I become with the world and exploring it, the more I see the voids in the world. So this is my mission: To make a blog updates, and transition this blog into a mothers journal, and pop culture journal, a forum for questions and answers, discussions and 'been there done thats'. I hope that it develops the way I want it to and if no one reads it, no problem. I have a great need to pen my inspirations down and make sense of them.

This entire post is such a ramble and mess of ideas, but that is how full my brain is these days! I watch a lot of news and talk shows, the same ones pretty much every day. I hope that I can take their 'hot topics' and express my thoughts on here and hopefully elicit some responses on your views. I find more and more thoughts building in my head and no where to dissect them! I'll try and start today. Here goes....

LC