Creativity

Becoming a mom has caused many things in my life to be placed on hold. My marriage is on hold from time to time (thankfully I have a wonderfully understanding husband) my career (not that I have much of one) and my social life.
I am at Henry's constant woo and I use to HATE hearing other women say this but it isn't by choice and now I understand. But since he is so dependent upon me I don't have a life outside of his world.

Yesterday I was watching a youtube video of Lady Gaga at Google doing an interview about her life, and I was touched. I don't revel over public figures, my time in L.A. taught me that is a waste of time because celebrities are just glorified fuck ups. Anywho- I was watching this interview and it was an hour long and what possessed me to watch the entire thing who knows but I did and I learned something from it. I took something from her that I wasn't expecting to. She said a quote that I loved "Honor your creativity". So many people put their lives on hold for so many reasons every day and they dont honor their creativity they dont answer the door. And in that moment I stopped, I realized I have been denying myself my life, my career, my creativity. I have been juggling a husband, a dog, a baby, a house, work etc and lost Lauren. So today I beg you to stop and think about yourself, treat yourself be yourself. I stopped doing that and I have enjoyed giving my every being to Henry- my body as his home, my time for his nurturing, my body for his food. But now its momma's time!

I am focusing on making time for all the things that make me tick, that keep me happy and de-stress me.

That thing right now is a quick cat nap before Henry wakes up :D

random blurb from my brain not necessarily a blog post but that's my life these days <3

LC